Worship

I have been given this Sunday off at Central thanks to Chris agreeing to play drums (Thanks!, I needed it). With the Sunday off and Stephen being in Africa, Faith and I have decided to go to Buckhead Church Sunday morning. We have been to Buckhead twice now and have really enjoyed it. In fact, if we were not at Central, it is where we would choose to attend on Sundays. I have found that when I am there I really can open up and worship God in a way that I can't do when I am not playing at Central. When I am not playing at Central, I find myself so focused on what my replacement is playing, or how the audio mix sounds, or any number of other things that I never spend time just worshiping God.

Now, when I am playing, it is completely different. I worship HARD when I play. Many Sundays I leave the stage exhausted, and its not because I was playing hard. Playing with the band at Central (especially Jake Power) has really taught me how to worship through my playing and I pour everything I have into it. On Sunday morning, I sit down behind my drums and put in my monitors and for a few moments I am excluded from the rest of the Sunday chaos. I tell myself to give everything in me to God, leave nothing inside for me. When we start to play, I (try to) close my eyes and let it all pour out. In those moments, it is just me and God. I don't think that there are a couple hundred people looking back at me, or that there are 4 or 5 other guys on the stage with me, its just me and God, and I am pouring all I have into worshiping Him. (I am glad the drum mics don't pick up my singing!) There have been a few occasions when I have noticed the entire band worshiping God with all their might and when that happens, I know God is moving and touching people not only on stage but in the congregation. I really believe that the only times we are completely transparent as worship musicians is when we are in this completly consumed state of worship.

I am going to miss my friends at Central this week, but at the same time I look forward to not having to play drums on Sunday and still being able to worship God without my distractions.