So I know that there is a lot to catch up on. As you may (should) already know, a little more than a year and a half ago my wife and I moved away from all our friends and family so that I may attend a small bible college just south of Atlanta. I majored in Biblical Studies and Preaching and for the most part really enjoyed my studies. I made new friends, Faith loved living close to Atlanta and I was learning more about Jesus, the bible and religion every day.
At first I was thrilled to be there. God had made things come together in a way where I could see Him leading me to go to Atlanta Christian College. In addition to my school work, I was given opportunities to preach, and to be completely honest, I loved it. When I was preaching, I felt that I was doing exactly what God had called me to do.
After I completed my first 2 semesters I started to notice something. I saw it in myself and I saw it in other students. We were empty. We were faking it. There was all this lip service being given to Jesus but it was mostly empty praise. I came to realize that by being immersed in a Christian culture is the quickest way to lose your spirituality.
At school we were assigned bible passages to read, we studied the life of Christ as if he were just another player in world history, and we were told that you had to go to church 2 times a week or we would get a failing grade. There were so many rules and limitations put on you, you no longer had to rely on God to give you the strength to do the right things, it was a requirement. I found myself going through the motions. I only prayed when required to do so, I only read the Bible when assigned, I only reached out to others when the school told me that I needed to. I was living in a culture so steeped in what we are told Christianity is all about, that it no longer was truly seeking Christ myself.
Now that I am removed from that setting, I find it hard to reconnect to the spiritual strength that I felt before. I am also quick to notice when others seem to be just going through the motions as I am. Is this the problem with surrounding ourselves with a strictly "Christian" religious culture? Do we become so blind and deaf that we can't see Christ reaching out to us right in front of our faces? Can we stop faking it long enough to admit that we have fallen away, and once again truly start seeking Him again?
These are my thoughts, I am a drummer who is trying to find His beat...Again.
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